Many times as I prepared to be a part of FMJ I was asked by those closest to me why I was doing it. I had lots of answers why; “the money would be great for my family,” “it will give me a bigger platform from which to talk to people about God,” “it will help me with my rodeo camps at Sky Ranch,” and more. While all of these reasons may be somewhat valid they were not what was really at the heart of the matter. In my heart I found myself really wanting to joust - wanting to meet this challenge. My wife signed me up to do this and I have often kidded with her about that. But when she signed me up she only did it because she thought I would be good at it and she thought it would be good for me. She knew if I was picked for the show it meant she would have to take care of the kids alone for over a month while trying to work and get all four of them where they needed to go. She knew all of this and while I am sure if I win the $100k she will be excited and she will find some cool ways to spend some of the money, the financial prize wasn’t her motivation. The same way my motivation- my heart- was not focused on any of these secondary things. Now I know some of you may be thinking “well all of these secondary things - aren’t they supposed to be the ‘first’ things?” “Isn’t telling people about Jesus supposed to be the ‘first’ thing on your agenda?” But you see, that is just it - I am not even supposed to have an agenda. I am simply to follow God and He leads us by our heart. In fact the minute those other things become my motivation then I become outcome-oriented and everything I do becomes a means to an end. Then cooking breakfast for my fellow competitors would have been about “winning them to Jesus” instead of about filling our bellies before we jousted all day. Then jousting would have been about “having a bigger platform” instead of being about challenging my own heart. What if Candice had signed me up because she wanted the $100k or even because she wanted us to be able to “reach more people”? That would have been at the very least burdensome, and at worst, manipulative. But when we just do what is in front of us with an honest heart - do what is in front of us because we just really want to - then we give God the room to do the parts that are really His to begin with.